Weigh In: Week 22

Current Weigh: 217lbs

Monthly Gain: +2lbs    Total Loss: -24lbs

Oh, summer.

You always surprise me!

So, my fitness and weight goals didn't quite happen, but I didn't do too bad!

This whole past month, I haven't focused on my eating or exercising.

I've been focusing on my emotional health, which is extremely important!

That being said, I only gained 2 pounds!  I'll take it!

I'm very much ready for school to start in a week!

Not that I don't love summer, I do, but structure works so much better for my health and wellness goals and plan.  I'm excited about planning my meals and exercise.  I know I can plan these things during the summer, too, but after a few weeks I get lazy about it.

This year is going to be a GREAT year all around.

I can feel it....

Weigh-In: Week 18

Current Weigh: 215lbs

Bi-Weekly Loss: -4lbs    Total Loss: -26lbs

Sorry I've been MIA.  Stress again.  It's gone now :-)  

So I didn't weigh in last week, just wasn't feeling it, too much else going on.

Yesterday, I was feeling really good in general, so I got on the scale fully clothed (I'm usually a strict nude weigher lol).  I couldn't believe I was down!!!

I haven't been tracking my food or exercising much, but I've been keeping active and eating okay for the most part.  Stress did play a part, there was a day I got pizza and wings and washed it down with beer.  I grabbed Wendy's one day for dinner.  Stuff like that, but that's life, and then you get over it.

Good News!!!  I'm taking my life back!!!

I'm really happy right now, in a great place both emotionally and physically.

I'm living my life, having so much fun, and really embracing everything life has to offer.

If you're going through a rough time in your life, hang on!

It'll be over, you'll survive!  I promise!!!

And then everything will be amazing!!!!!

Weigh-In: Week 16.3ish

Current Weigh: 219lbs

Weekly Loss: -4lbs    Total Loss: -22lbs

So, after deciding on Monday that a weigh-in wasn't going to be good for my mental state, I woke up today feeling great!!!  Debated weighing, not weighing, and landed on the scale.  Glad I did!!!  Almost all of the weight I gained back is gone!  Yay!!!  Moving my weigh in day to Wednesdays now for multiple reasons, so expect posts a few days later than usual!

One of my main focuses is on drinking plenty of water.  Yesterday I got in 140 ounces!  I'm shooting for at least 120 each day.  I LOVE my water bottle, holds 40 ounces, and it's pretty, too!!!  I bring it everywhere with me, so it makes it easier.

What's not always easy, however, is finding a bathroom quick enough when you're out and about.  Luckily my day took me to places with clean public restrooms, but man, there were some mad dashes to the potty!

Anywho, back on track, feeling great!

I leave you with this informative gem about just how dangerous water can be...

Weigh In: Week 15

This is the week where you learn to really believe that I post the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth (if you didn't believe me already!).  

Current Weigh: 223lbs

Weekly Gain: 5lbs    Total Loss: -18lbs

Yep.  Up 5 pounds.  And can I tell you, I just laughed at it!

There comes a certain point in your weight loss journey that you have to ignore the short-term scale.  Like now.  I was expecting to gain, and I did, and that's fine!  It'll come back off!

I had a really fun few days!  I drank alcohol for the first time in months, I didn't track what I ate, I made some poor food choices, I didn't drink nearly enough water, didn't exercise as much as usual, and I had a great time doing it!

I'm also still very stressed with everything going on in my life, it's starting to exhaust me again.  My hair is falling out more than usual, and I'm having some really fun female issues.  All stress related.  All cause more stress.  No bueno.

Had a great NSV (non-scale victory) this week!  I ordered this shirt about 2 months ago, and sadly, it was too tight to wear.  So, in the closet it went, and I forgot about it.  Then July 4th came around, and I figured I'd try it on.

SUCCESS!!!  It fits, really well in fact!

And I just love my new swimwear that I treated myself to for the summer.

So, today being Monday, I'm starting this week off on the right foot.

Prepped lunches and dinners for most of the week.

Trying hard to get my water in.

Working out most days.

Lesson of the week:  It's okay to go off-track for a little while.  This isn't a race to be won in a day.  It's never going to be over!  It's for the rest of my life!  Bad days happen, as do good days.  That's life, so do what you need to do each day, and move on.  It can be easy to say well, I've been off the wagon for 3 days, I'm just going to keep on eating whatever I want and drinking and being lazy.  That's not my plan, though!  Wagon, here I come!

Weigh In: Week 14

Current Weigh: 218lbs

Weekly Loss: -4lbs    Total Loss: -23lbs

 Kicking ass and taking names!!!

These are my April 1st pics and my First-Day-of-Summer pictures!  

My waist and derriere have gone down the most!  

My front has smoothed and gone down some, too!  Yay!

I didn't think I was going to reach my June goal of getting under 220lbs,

so I was ecstatic when I got on the scale this morning!!!
My #1 tip: DRINK LOTS OF WATER
Like, lots and lots and lots of water.
And put yummy things in there (but no sugar or fake chemical filled things!)

I'm doing better with life in general, still really sad about the divorce,
but focusing all of my energy on myself.  I never really spend much time on myself, and it feels really good getting to spend every minute of every day not worrying about anyone or anything besides myself!!!

I have big plans for myself this summer.  I want to try and see if I can reach 200lbs by the time school starts again in September. 

I'm going to exercise every day this summer.  Each day will start with a workout, most likely a walk/jog.  Later on in the day, I'm going to do Fitness Blender workouts to focus on different parts of my body.  I also purchased an elliptical to keep me busy on rainy days and thinking forward to the winter.  I'm working on creating a nice workout area in my house. 

I'm also going to limit my shopping to the farm stand, local fish store and local meat market with minimal trips to the grocery store.  I'm very lucky to have these amazing resources where I live, and they'll keep me away from the processed foods that are so bad for you!

Things are looking up!  Happy Summer Everyone!!!

Weigh-In: Week 13

This week's post isn't about my weight weigh-in.  

I lost a pound and I'm happy about it.  222lbs, down 19 so far.

It's about my life and recent events.  Most of you know me and have for a long time.  Some of you may have never met me, but I'm the kind of person who's always 100% truthful and puts everything out there.  I don't pretend like everything's always great, I try to honestly share my highs and lows, successes and failures, so I'm sharing this news in hopes it can help someone else.

I have never wanted children.  It's just something I've always known about myself.  I love kids, I've dedicated my career to educating children and instilling a love of music within them, I just don't want any of my own.  Chris (my husband) was on the same page.  Recently, he started having other thoughts.  He finally decided that his life isn't complete without children.  

I can't do that for him, so Chris and I are getting divorced.

We are both distraught.  We both deeply love one another.  We've been together for the better part of 13 years, married for almost 8.  We've both fought to stay together at various points while we were dating.  We both wish the other would somehow change their minds, but both of us feel so strongly about our choices.  This is something you can't compromise on, nor would it be fair.  I can't bring a child into this world just for him, and he can't not have a family just for me.

Love isn't always enough, and I'm learning that now.

I thought love could fix everything.  Call it the Disney effect.  Just kiss me and everything will be fine and we'll live happily ever after.  Life doesn't work that way.  Love also means respect.  We're not mad at one another, we're just so horribly sad.  It's okay for me to not want children.  It's okay for him to want children.  It's not okay for either of us to hold it against one another, so that's why we're doing what we're doing.

I've been consumed by this deep sadness for a week and a half now, but I'm not letting it take me over.  I finally had the energy yesterday to workout.  I am proud that I didn't go back to bad habits of eating crappy food and drinking.  I haven't touched a sip of alcohol, and ate healthy-ish, just didn't measure like I usually do.

My lesson for you:  No matter what's happening, you'll be okay.  You can beat it.  You have to accept it, and then fight.  Don't let the sadness win.  This is your life, so take control and hold on!

I am forever thankful for my amazing friends.  Without you all, I might have let that sadness continue to take over my life.  I know I'll be okay, it's getting easier every day, but it still hurts so much.  The hardest thing for me has been figuring out how to tell people, that's one of the reasons I'm writing this.  And yes, Chris knows I'm writing it, I would never put something like this out there without asking him first.

I am continuing my journey, and very glad I started it when I did.  I'm already in the habit of working on myself, and I'm ready to tackle everything head on.  I'm going to keep on working on my food, exercise, and mental health.  

I'm working on me.

It's going to be an amazing summer.  Just watch me fly...

Weigh-In: Week 12

Current Weigh: 223lbs

Weekly Loss: -2lbs    Total Loss: -18lbs

Kicked butt this week!

I've discovered something new about myself on this journey.
I'm currently going through something in my personal life that I will share at some point, because I think it can help others, but I'm just not ready to now.  
Needless to say, I'm extremely emotional and stressed.  

The "old" me would drown my sorrows with chinese take-out, wine and ice cream.
Maybe fried chicken and mac-n-cheese.
The new me???  EXERCISE

I never thought I'd say that!

The BEST way to deal with all of this emotions is to get out and move.
My body waits for it every day.  It's such a release.  I never knew.
I never would have believed it, most of you know me.
I'm not that person who is like "just go for a walk, you'll feel better!"
I'm the person who'll invite you over for comfort food and get you drunk.

NOT ANYMORE!!!