Weigh-In: Week 1

Current Weight:  238 lbs

Weekly Loss:  3 lbs     Total Loss: 3 lbs

Roxy really wanted to be in the pictures!

So, yeah, I was up to 241 lbs!  Again, I can't beat myself up about it.

I have to see it as a starting point!

Man, I haven't really looked at my side-profile in a long, long time.  

At least my stomach balances out my rear end!!!  : )

I'm happy being down 3 lbs this week!

My body is still adjusting to exercise, my back is not happy, but we're getting there!

Reality just slapped me in the face!!!

So, I know that I've gained a large amount of weight over the past few years.  I've accepted the fact that I'm back up to the point where I was the last time I began this journey (weigh-in coming on Monday!).  

What I didn't realize is just how out-of-shape I let myself become.  I'm not a sedentary person, but I haven't "exercised" in who knows how long.  The most exercise I've gotten as of late has been practicing the choreography with my 5th graders for their play, or doing folk dances in my classes.  

Last night, I went to a yoga class at Yogaholic in Center Moriches (I purchased a Groupon deal for 2 months of unlimited classes for $49.  The deal is still available if you're interested).  I LOVED the class, but I was horribly upset to find myself unable to do things I had easily done in the past.

I will make one excuse, and I had my husband check to make sure it was a valid one and not just one I'm making up to make myself feel better.  The yoga mat I bought is so slippery, I couldn't hold any poses without slipping.  It will be returned, and a stickier one will be purchased.

That being said, man, I suck!!!  I really can't believe how weak my muscles have become.  I did get upset about it for a good hour or so, but I've flipped it around.  Now, my mantra is "this is my starting point."  I can't change where I am right now, but I can change where I'm going to be!  The only place to go from here is up, and that's where I'm going!!!

I'm still frikkin cute, though :-)

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I Love Myself!!!

I'm a firm believer in feeling good about yourself no matter your weight. 

One thing I rarely lacked was self-confidence.

When I'm not feeling good about myself, I really, REALLY come down hard...

I have always had a very hard time spending money on myself, and up until recently I didn't realize how my ill-fitting, dumpy clothes and generally not-cared-about looks were affecting how I felt not just about myself, but about everything! Those who know me know I'm not a "girly" girl at all, so I have to make an effort at some things, but they are worth it! The past week or 2, I went shopping for some new clothes, have been doing my nails, makeup (let's not get crazy, we're talking eye liner, that's about it!), made a hair appt, and try to feel good about myself each and every day.  I'm not doing these things to make myself look attractive to others, they really make my feel good about myself!   

Feeling good makes me feel like I can change whatever I want to! 

I'm moving up my official start day! It's tomorrow!!!

 I'm so overly ready mentally, going to make up some menus and go shopping later. 

I'm excited and energized, and it's just the beginning!

I'm back!!!

It's been a while friends!  Life is going well in general, but I can honestly say I haven't been caring about my weight at all for a very long time.  I've been eating and drinking whatever, and exercise is almost non-existent.  I haven't had the energy to even be upset by it, which is a problem, but hey, that's reality.

I have gained so much weight, and I'm at the point where I am ready to get myself back in gear.  For me, when I do anything, I put 100% of my energy into it, and I'm finally ready to do that with my food and exercise.  I'm starting in April.  

Yeah, I'm still cute, but I know this isn't healthy!

Why wait 2 weeks?

I know myself.  I need a starting point where I have no excuses.  March is extremely busy at work, I have limited time to cook and/or exercise, so if I start now I'm setting myself up for failure.  Failure = frustration = eating and being lazy.  Not good.  April starts with spring break, giving me time to collect my recipe ideas, plan out exercise, shop, etc.

I know that blogging about everything is something that really works for me, so I will be blogging here again starting in April.  I hope you can join me on this journey.  I'm older, wiser, and more fed up this time around, so I'm optimistic that I'll be successful and keep the weight off this time so I can be healthy for the rest of my life!